Getting Back to the Why?

Gary asked me why now? I did not think I had a valid answer, but after some reflection I think I do.

I was sick and tired of how I felt about myself and my life, but mostly about myself. My body image was terrible, because of the extra weight. This made me feel like a failure because I could not lose the weight. Feeling like a failure weighed on my mind and affected other aspects of my life.

I have had a virtual fitness coach from Fitbit for almost a year. I took her advise and we "chatted" weekly. Back a few months ago, it felt like my emotions were going off the rails and I was more depressed than normal. Putting on the happy friendly exterior, but breaking apart slowly on the inside.  She kept reaching out and I ignored her. We eventually reconnected and are still working together.

But I think that deep dark place I was in was the tipping point. It was either leave this life or live this life. I am glad I chose to live this life.