It's more than just a #

I know the scale is only one of the measures of this journey I am on. That came crystal clear the other day. I got a hair cut that I am very happy with and I snapped a picture in the bathroom mirror to show my hairstylist in FL could cut it the same way.

Big shock for me ... I looked great in the picture! I hate my picture taken, because I never liked the way I looked. This picture changed my perspective.

I am so excited to continue on this journey!

a BREAKTHROUGH moment for my husband

So, when I started this journey with a Hypnotherapist his only condition was my husband had to know about it and be okay with it. I talked to my husband and he was okay with the process. But I don't think he understood what could happen during this transformation.

I love him and I know he loves me. But this journey is not easy and it takes dedication and committment. I committed to it on 5/28 and weighed in at 235. On 7/8 I weighed in at 220. The journey is not all about the scale,  but that helps!

This morning, my husband told me that my hard work is paying off and I am going to be successful! For him to say this is a huge statement of support! I am thrilled by this and so very pumped! 

I am going to be successful!

Time to Stand on My Own Two Feet!

For 30-plus days I have had the support of so many people, as I have moved forward on this journey. Now I am back to myself and my spouse, occasionally there are others around. But most of the time,  it is just the two of us. Can I stay focused on what is important? ME? I am setting the bar high for myself and saying yes! Tomorrow is day 1 ... wish me luck! I can use it, but I know in my heart and head what is important and I am ready for the journey to continue.

High Highs Snapped by Lows

Today I found a scale.

5/28 I weighed 235.0

7/8 I weighed 218.8

To say I am thrilled is an understatement. I have the highest high I have had in a long time.

But a high can quickly be snapped by a low.

Disrespect is my toughest challenge yet. I am not sure if disrespect is the right word, maybe it is hurt. You would think at 57 years old I would have thicker skin. But I guess not. Why is it when things don't go right, I am the brunt of the corse words and the hours of silence if I get upset? How do get past this ....

I told myself when I stepped off the scale, nothing would ruin my happy, happy day .... so I am saying my daily affirmations about a million times today!

Disrespect

I was told that if you let people disrespect you, you give them power over you. How do you change that? How do you stand up fir yourself when they verbally strike-out in frustration. You know they are not frustrated with you, but a situation. Still the sting of the strike does not hurt any less. 

Sometimes I think I am just making excuses for them, because the truth hurts. But, I want to change because I am tired of hurting.

The Final Piece

Yesterday was a great day. I feel at peace. I feel alive and happy.

I am not sure how the unconscious mind works, but I can say it works. After my 4th session my feelings of guilt are banished from my mind. I have accepted the past as the past and I am looking forward to my future.

Ahhh Haaaa Moment

This morning I had an event that helped solidify that my new outlook and hard work is paying off.

My husband and my work shirts all look the same. Only the sizes are different. While I was out walking, he got dressed. When I got back to the rig he said "the red shirt on the bed is a ladies shirt and too small for me." I picked it up and was going to give it to our Wagonmaster, she could wear it. Then I said, no ... someday I will be able to wear it. Then I said, what the heck I will try it on.

Guess what, it fit and I am wearing it today! Today, July 1st, 2022 ... it fit! 

One small victory on this journey!