Some say that a person who likes a sunset is glad the day is over, while a person who delights at a sunrise looks forward to the coming day. Do you agree?
It's an interesting theory, but does it hold water? I think I am a sunset person. I have always said that is because I don't have to get up early to see the sunset. Could the real reason I like sunsets is because the day is over? The sunset brings an end to the pretending. The pretending that everything is great. The pretending that life is good? But on the flipside of that coin, the sunset also brings the darkness, the darkness that envelopes you and surrounds you. The darkness holds your self doubt, the darkness where your secrets live, the darkness that you run from, the lonliness and the fear. I am not a fan of the darkness. So, why do I like sunsets?
Let me go a bit deeper. I don't think the night ever quiteted my thoughts, in fact I know I have had some of my biggest meltdowns at night. Darkness has never been my friend, in fact darkness only enhances my feelings if self doubt, worthlessness and fear of failure.
I am learning that I am loved and to love myself. That I am strong and powerful. That my contributions on this earth are meaningful and provide me with a purpose.
Let's talk about sunrise. The dawn of a new day. The first hint of the sun on the horizon. It should not be a time of dread, facing what lies ahead of you that day. Thinking that it another day of make believe, make believe everything is good, make believe everything is right.
It should be and will be, from today on, a time to succeed. A time to learn more about myself, my strengths and to do more good. Another day to love and approve of myself. Another day to rejoice in the day the Lord and I have made a good one.
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