I keep seeing and feeling my Mom is near by and I am not sure why.
My Hypnotherapist says she and I have unfinished business. I guess that could be true. We had a tricky relationship.
Growing up, she stopped working until we were in middle school. She made us tow the line and we had what we needed but not everything we wanted. As I grew up, I began to rebel. I got into Rochester Institute of Technology (RIT) and she was very happy. I also got accepted at Brockport. I choose Brockport, so I could live on campus and move away from home. When I got the ROTC scholarship, she should have been happy, but she never approved of me joining the military. She never liked my moving away.
I do believe that she loved and supported me, but my independence was very different than her life. She was the last of 3 sisters married. She lived her whole life in the same house, the one her father built. Her older sister lived 2 doors down. Her younger sister moved to another town and my mother always treated her nicely, but behind her back she spoke differently. Sometimes I think she saw her little sister in me and that might account for some of our relationship issues.
I am hoping we can work it out and I can move forward in my journey.
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